ego… Energy Gone Obscene! Part I
ego! It’s the biggest part of us all that is the cause of the life we are living and yet, for most of us, we know very little about what ego is! Now, I am not talking about what most of us call ego, that proud part of us that boasts. Yes, that is ego, but just a smidgen of what the real ego is! What I’m referring to is this phantom persona we started acquiring around the age of two.
Around that time we started to stop realizing who/what we really are! We were being told, “No, you can’t do what makes you happy anymore, like being curious and playing with everything you can get your hands on.” I understand some of that is required for our safety, outlets, cleaners, stake knives, etc. But for the first time in our new lives we were being scolded and didn’t know why.
I can’t remember exactly what I was thinking when I was two, but I bet it was something like…why are these giants who were so nice to me, giving me food and wiping my butt when demanded, now yelling at me, causing me to have this weird feeling I’ve never felt before, which was fear. That is when the phantom self appeared. We were told you are bad, you are now good, you must listen to me and do as I say, it doesn’t matter if you like it or not this is your role. I am mother, father, brother, sister, friend, teacher, etc. and you are little and don’t know what you are doing. We will let you know who you are, we will help create the phantom self/ego, because that is what was done for us.
No reason to blame anyone, because they would have to then blame everyone that contributed to their ego and on and on… it is what it is and if anyone knew how to not make mistakes, they would never make a mistake. It’s all just a part of this Life we are living. That’s the foundation to overcoming the ego. The ego is what it is, but don’t feed it any energy by believing what it is saying. Just observe the odd, sometimes scary and negative ego self talk, sometimes known as thinking. Just by being aware that this negative talk isn’t really you, but this made up ego, takes power away from it and is the beginning of overcoming the grip of the phantom self-ego! What I call Energy Gone Obscene.
“When you unlearn what your learned growing up, is when you really learn what life is all about”